Car Thieves: My new book, coming soon! (plus, read the first chapter)

The year 2027. Edinburgh, Scotland. Disease has swept a deadly path through society. A nightlife mogul with a violent past, a sadistic drug dealer, an artist craving companionship, a privileged playboy and a fiercely independent motor mechanic struggle to survive in the chaotic and brutal leftover world of the immune.

Release dates
Read online and download for free
9th February 2018

DeviantArt, Tablo and Wattpad
Read online for free
16th February 2018

Download free for Instafreebie members
16th February 2018

Pre-launch hype

Throughout January 2018, I’ll be sharing character notes and excerpts from the book right here. Meet Chance on 9th, Evan on 12th, Jac on 16th, Richie on 19th and Sarah on 23rd.

You can see my mood and reference boards for Car Thieves on Pinterest, including this post-apocalyptic aesthetic board.

The first chapter

Ashes and ashes and no place in the ground for those who have fallen. Crematoriums blaze like dying stars encased in stone, their toxic breath and powdered death shipped out to the desolate depths of the ocean and sealed in salt by tired machines.

Perhaps this poison would find a way to return to us, as all our past poisons have done, because there are no safe graves to hold all the lives and matter and potential we have wasted.

There are no chains strong enough to contain the destruction we have released. Some things can never be buried because they came from us and we are bound to bear the burdens of our own creation. Nothing will ever be truly at rest again.

Rest has been consumed by ruin, so we hold our collective breath and shield our eyes and know that we have brought this on ourselves. We have only our own misguided ambitions to blame and in the end we are as lost as we were in the beginning.

Allowing his train of thought to arrive at its natural conclusion, unlike everything else in the world, Rav poured the last of the whiskey into a crystal glass. Finally, finally, the bottle was finished and so was he. He had kept that last drop for so long, preserving it untouched until there was no point in keeping it any longer.

He savoured the warmth of the absurdly expensive liquid sliding down his throat, then set the glass carefully on the antique leather coaster at the edge of the mahogany desk. All status symbols in a world where status no longer meant anything at all, symbolic or otherwise.

He tilted the framed photograph of the only thing that had ever truly meant anything to him, gently and respectfully, until it lay face-down in its final resting place. When Aida and Alison had passed, Rav and Don had felt the unparalleled ache of loss together. When Don’s time had come, a month later, Rav had carried that weight alone.

As leaders of other nations had fallen, there had been remarks about Rav’s luck in surviving. The doctors had counted him among the immune. The preachers had proclaimed him blessed. As he sent first his daughters and then his husband to the crematoriums, he felt no touch of fortune upon him.

With the steady hand of a man who has found the secret of peace within his reach at last, he unlocked and opened the concealed drawer in the desk, allowing himself a calm, quiet moment to appreciate the smoothness of the mechanism, a sure sign of fine craftmanship from a time when furniture was a concept that mattered. It meant nothing now. Not a thing.

He lifted his gun from the drawer, put the cold, greasy barrel in his mouth and settled serenely into the one decision that he knew with every fibre of his being and every atom of the aether of his soul to be right. It was the only decision he would ever make in this office that he would not live to regret.

A bright white explosion of divine emptiness flashed before his eyes in the exquisite instant after he pulled the trigger.

One sharp, solitary crack split the silence as Dr Ravinder Khan-MacKay, First Minister of Scotland, loving husband and devoted father, issued his final apology to what was left of the world in the form of an elegant spray of blood against a window no-one had bothered to clean in the longest time.

Silver the kitten: Two and a half months after adoption

At the end of September, I wrote about adopting this tiny ball of fluff. Silver was 8 weeks old then and only weighed 800g! I can’t believe how much he’s grown.

At 10 weeks old, he still looked so kittenish, although he’d started zooming around at such a high speed that the best (or only!) time to take a photo of him that was actually in focus was when he was sleeping.

When he had his last vaccinations, he weighed just over 1kg. He had his final kitten health check on 27th November and his weight had doubled to 2.1kg! He’s in perfect health and loves being fussed over and cuddled by everyone he meets.

I’ve started clipping his nails at home and he’s absolutely fine with it, which is great. He’s such a gentle little thing with his claws. When he was very young, my husband and I were covered in scratches from being climbed on, but it never happens anymore. Even the vet remarked on how careful he is when he’s playing. Hopefully this good behaviour will continue!

I think his eyes are now the colour they’re going to stay. They were so pretty when they were blue, but I adore the pale gold they’ve become as he’s grown older. He’s teething at the moment, so we’re being careful not to encourage him to munch on human hands (it doesn’t always work, but we’re teaching him “no and down” so he’s learning) and we always make sure he has plenty of toys to chew on.

I’d forgotten how chaotic it could be to have a kitten in the house and how no matter how well you think you’ve cat-proofed everything, you’ve never cat-proofed anything quite enough. He’s been a test of my patience at times but I’m so happy we adopted him ❤

If you want to see more photos of Silver, he has his very own Instagram!

Why I’m no longer using Patreon (and how you can support me in other ways)

I posted this letter to my Patrons this morning and I’m sharing it here because it’s part of my writing and publishing journey, so I figured it might be of interest to my blog readers as well as to any other creators who follow me here.

Hello Patrons and friends!

I’ve been using Patreon for a few months now and although it’s been a learning experience and a lot of fun, I’ve found myself more and more trying to fit what I do into Patreon’s structure rather than it being something that worked effectively for me.

My main online focus is my own website,, where I will continue to share photographs, blog posts, creative writing and free books for reading online and downloading. I’m also active on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and DeviantArt. These are all good places to keep up with my work, see new stuff first and connect with me, and I’d be happy to see you there.

Currently, and for the foreseeable future, free books will also be available for anyone to read online on Tablo and Wattpad. I also plan to continue making my books available for free download through Instafreebie, which requires membership to the site (hence having my work in other places too).

I’m looking at a variety of different publishing options and platforms for my writing at the moment, and am considering offering full-res photos for download for a small direct payment. These are all just considerations at the moment, but future plans and happenings will be shared on, which you can follow via WordPress (if you’re a WordPress user) or by email.

Patrons who have supported me will still get my next book a week before it’s released anywhere else and will still be listed in the acknowledgements of that book because to do anything else would feel like breaking a promise.

If you wish to offer further or ongoing financial support, you are very welcome to do so through PayPal, either treating it as an online tip jar or as a way to buy a book or story after you’ve read it.

As of today (7th December 2017) I won’t be using Patreon. If you want more detail, feel free to read on. If you aren’t massively interested in the why and how of it all, that’s cool too. Thanks for your ongoing support 🙂

Much love and gratitude,

Tanya xx

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OK, so here are the details if you’re interested…

Patreon’s structure doesn’t fit my structure
Patreon is great. It works really well for some people and I know there are some writers who are using it to great effect. But I’m still at the stage in my writing career where I’m experimenting with and discovering processes which work for me. This means that I might continue to publish two short books a year, or I might not. I might continue to work mainly on novellas, or I might not (I’m thinking of a short story collection for my next project). I might spend some time focusing more on blogging than on writing fiction, or I might not. I just don’t know right now and with continuous support through Patreon, I feel that trial and error, and changes of plan, don’t fit.

Patreon has a Per Creation option (I was using the Per Month option) but again this feels like something I would have to squish and force my creative output into and I just don’t want to do that. Since I made changes to my reward tiers last month, I realised that what I do and how I work doesn’t mesh well with what Patreon does and how it works. This doesn’t mean I’m wrong or Patreon is wrong. It means that Patreon isn’t right for me, but it took actually using it to figure this out.

I mentioned in the main part of this post that people are still welcome to contribute through PayPal if they’d like to drop some money in my online tip jar or pay for a book after they read it. When I build a larger body of work, I may sell some books while still maintaining free content (because that’s important to me) and while I grow to that point and figure things out, I’d rather give people the option to contribute as and when they want to, rather than feeling like, “Oh god, people are paying me money every month and I have to do the thing in the particular way to fit with that”.

I’d rather promote my books and my own website than my Patreon page
Patreon, at the moment (and I assume for the foreseeable future) is not a place to be discovered. It’s a place to direct people to who already know me and my work. Also, Patreon works better for people who have a large audience AND whose creative output structure fits well with the platform.

I’m still very much at the beginning of growing an audience for my work and as that happens, I would much prefer to channel that traffic to my own website and social media places, and most importantly, to my own books, which a clear pay-as-you-can option available. Working to channel traffic to a completely separate platform, while building an audience, while still finding my feet in the actual writing and publishing part of what I do, isn’t the best use of my time and energy when it comes to promoting myself as a writer.

Patreon’s fee structure doesn’t work for me (or you, to be honest)
My Patrons should be receiving an email from Patreon over the next couple of days explaining that they’re introducing a change in fees. If you don’t get that email or you want to know more now, you can find detailed information here.

Since I began using Patreon, my take-home from $48 of monthly pledges has been about $33 (after fees etc). Basically, I haven’t been getting anywhere near the amount of money you’ve been very kindly giving to me. With Patreon’s new fee structure, I’d get slightly more money but you’d be paying more. I totally understand that Patreon need this money to function but honestly, if you want to pay me, then I’d rather you paid me directly than give a large proportion (especially for smaller pledges) to a third party. I assume you’d rather do that too.

Patreon may change as a platform in future and I’m not saying I’ll never use it again or that it’ll never fit with how I work, but channelling time and energy into something that isn’t a good fit right now doesn’t feel like the best thing for me or for my supporters ❤

December 2017 bullet journal set-up

People who are into bullet journalling and stationery in general will understand why this is so exciting for me – ERASABLE INK. When I found Pilot Frixion Light Soft erasable pastel highlighters, I actually made a little happy noise in the shop. It’s like someone looked into my head when they were making these. Using erasable highlighters has been so awesome (change my mind about a colour? No problem!) I decided to do something so obvious I can’t believe it took me this long – I got an erasable black pen too (also Pilot Frixion). OH MY GODS, I love it! I’m not always amazing at getting things right the first time, especially when my brain is a foggy mess, so not having that “Ugh, I’ve ruined a page” feeling is wonderful.

Monthly calendar and tracker spread

My bullet journal is primarily functional so I don’t really go all-out decorating it. I’m not saying I never will, but I don’t at the moment. I love looking at other people’s super fancy bujos online but my rampant perfectionism gets even more rampant if I dive too deep into prettifying my journal. That said, I couldn’t resist making December’s monthly pages subtly winter-themed, so I’ve gone with chilly colours and a little snowflake on my monthly spread.

Keeping my trackers fairly minimal worked really well for me last month, so I’m sticking with almost exactly the same habits and activities that I tracked in November.

Money and gratitude spread

My monthly money spread and my ‘one good thing a day’ gratitude tracker worked so well last month, I’ve decided to continue with them too. The blurred bit at the bottom of the right hand page is the mantra I use in my morning meditation. I have it memorised (I meditate in bed before I get up – the perfect start to the day) but I wanted to have it somewhere where I’d encounter it through the day as well.

I’m considering some changes to my weekly spreads, so I’ll be back with another ‘month in my bullet journal’ post at the end of December to let you know how that went 🙂

Month in review: November 2017

November has been primarily about NaNoWriMo so I’m going to mention that first. What a wild ride! I was super excited when I hit my 50,000 word target and completed the first draft of 22 Cards. I feel like I talked about NaNo pretty much non-stop here and on Twitter, so that’s all I’m going to say about it for now 🙂

The month started with sharing my feelings about Samhain, which, as a Pagan, is my new year, and my plans for the year ahead. My goals are focused around blogging, writing, social media and well-being, and my word for the year is FOCUS (you might notice it cropping up in a lot of posts). I love setting goals because it helps me stay on track with the things that are really important to me and it gives me something to come back to every now and then to check in with my progress.

When I talk about progress, I don’t mean achieving a thing someone else says I should have achieved by the time someone else says I should have achieved it. I’m referring to feeling more confident about what I’m doing, how much I’m learning and how I feel about my work. When I decided to Do The Writing Thing™ at the end of last year, I knew I wouldn’t be following a traditional path. That meant that I wouldn’t have neat little boxes to tick to tell me I was doing things well.

In a way, it’s difficult not being able to tick those neat little boxes. It’s also kind of amazing because pushes me to think more deeply about what I’m doing and why.

My husband and I escaped from the city over Samhain and spent a couple of days doing very little (and eating quite a lot) in the very beautiful Scottish borders. I’m terrible at switching off and relaxing, so a change of scenery was just the thing I needed.

I’ve tried to bring that ability to just stop and chill out sometimes back into my everyday life and I’m still not great at it, but I’m getting there. After NaNoWriMo (I know I wasn’t going to talk about it anymore, but context) I took a few days off to clear my brain out. The first couple of days mostly involved a lot of twitching because I felt like there was something I was supposed to be doing, but then I started to actually relax. Watching favourite shows on Netflix and getting a bit more sleep at night was so good and by the following week I felt recharged.

I also shared my packing tips for forgetful people.  I’m so accustomed to planning and organising around mobility difficulties and cognitive impairments that it’s pretty much second nature to me now. I’m trying to talk a bit more online about living with a disability because I think it’s important for people to be able to find relatable content around chronic illness that isn’t inspiration porn. Every time I talk about this stuff, the response is so positive and it reminds me that some of the things I’ve learned and figured out over the last decade and a half might be of use to other people.

I made some changes to my Patreon rewards in November, making all rewards available to all tiers of supporters. I appreciate all pledges, regardless of amount, and I wanted my rewards to reflect that. I realised that I’m still not totally fantastic at promoting my Patreon because, while I have links to it here and mention it occasionally, I’m still very much finding my feet in the world of ongoing crowd funding (there’s that non-traditional path again). Patreon have lots of awesome resources though, so I’m always learning and I’m happy to be able to approach it in a way that genuinely works for me and fits with my plans, even if it takes a little more time to build.

Towards the end of the month, I got super excited about the arrival of winter and shared a post about hygge and decorating our home. I couldn’t resist including a photo of my lovely new mug and my favourite tea! I also filed my nails short again after growing them for AGES. It had reached the point where they interfered with my typing and as much as I loved how my hands looked with long nails, I can’t handle losing my speedy typing abilities.

Finally, I posted about November in my bullet journal. I’d really missed paper planning so I’m really happy to be using it again. I’m already feeling so much more organised and productive.

I hope you’ve all had an awesome month. What did you get up to in November?

A month in my bullet journal: November 2017

It’s been just over a month since I talked about how I plan with both a bullet journal and digital calendar and note apps, and shared my November 2017 bullet journal set-up.

With a full month of bullet journalling behind me, I’m so glad I switched back to paper planning! I’ve been using digital planning less and less, which I’ll talk about more in a moment.

I’ve blurred the details in the photos below because while I’m happy to share general information and experiences with my bullet journal, the world doesn’t need to know all the minutiae of my daily life. I actually feel a bit weird when people share bullet journal spreads and photos with all their personal bits and pieces included. Although I adore the bullet journalling community online, my bujo is primarily for me. It’s a functional tool and the last thing I want to do is have to consider how my personal info will be received by the internet 🙂

The monthly spread

Obviously the month’s isn’t quite over yet, so there are a few lines of the tracker not filled in, and I stopped actively using Ello (too many social media platforms, not enough time!) so that’s why there’s a line through the last few days of that column.

After bullet journaling on and off for the last few years, I’ve found a monthly spread that really works for me. This layout gives me enough space to write short notes about appointments, events and tasks for each day, and I’ve reduced the number of things I track down to a more manageable and less anxiety-inducing level. I still use the Fitbit app for all my health-related tracking stuff but yoga and meditation are part of my daily routine so I like to track them in the bujo.

My NaNoWriMo tracker (not photographed) was so much fun! I updated my word count every day on the NaNoWriMo website, but filling in a graph that I could see in my bullet journal was great for keeping the happy going all month.

Monthly money and gratitude

While I still use Google Keep to track weekly spend and expenses, because those notes are shared with my husband so we can both access and edit them, I’ve found that having this list of income and expenses, and a summary of weekly spending, in my bujo really helps me keep on top of things. I haven’t filled in totals for the month yet because there are still a few days to go, but I like the idea of being able to look back on that information for each month rather than just wiping and rewriting Google Keep notes.

Keeping a one line per day gratitude tracker has been a wonderful experience! On days when my health is particularly rotten, it helps to keep me thinking positively and appreciatin the blessings in my life. That stuff doesn’t make physical pain go away or magically create more mobility, but it lifts my spirits which makes me better able to cope with the difficult stuff.

All the collections!

When I started bullet journalling again, I wasn’t sure whether or not I would want to move almost everything over to a paper planning system, but I quickly realised that it made things feel a bit more manageable for me and I do love being able to flick through a notebook for information instead of having to look at screens all the time. Don’t get me wrong, I love my devices, but when I’m busy writing a lot, working on social media and engaged in online volunteering, my eyes really start to feel the strain.

Rather than take pictures of a whole heap of pages, here’s a list of collections I’ve added during November…

  • Morning routine
  • Email and social media admin
  • Bullet journal ideas
  • Blog post ideas
  • Twitter tags for writers
  • Things to buy and do: Home and garden
  • Books stats for Stone Flowers Grow In Cold Places
  • Blog and Twitter stats
  • Writing income tracker
  • Comfort and distraction list
  • Photography ideas
  • Personal brand notes
  • Healthy vegetarian meals and snacks
  • Look and feel good lists
  • Goals for the year ahead
  • Patreon schedule
  • Blog post schedule
  • Car Thieves launch plan

There’s a combination of work-related, creative and self-care collections in there, all of which are important to me and all of which have been really beneficial to have in my bullet journal. Because my word for the year is FOCUS, I’m working on being more intentional and organised with my online and work activity, and my bullet journal has been super helpful for that already.

I’ll be sharing my December 2017 bullet journal set-up next week. Are you a bullet journal enthusiast or a planning and productivity fan in general? Leave a comment and say hi!

Winter is here. Time for hygge!

Winter is here and I’m so excited! Autumn is beautiful but winter is really my favourite. I love the crisp chill in the air, the bare tree branches reaching through the cold and how much fun it is to make everything at home extra cosy.

I remember the first time I heard about the concept of hygge, defined by Wikipedia as a Danish and Norwegian word which can be described as a quality of cosiness and comfortable conviviality that engenders a feeling of contentment or well-being. This is one of my favourite feelings in the world and I love that there’s an actual word for it! When I think of cosiness in winter, a big mug of cinnamon tea is one of the first things to come to mind, so I treated myself to this deceptively large mug (of course it’s pink) especially for my favourite tea.

Since this is a Pagan household, we decorate for Yule and for winter more generally, so it definitely isn’t too early for these decorations. I toyed with the idea of making a winter-themed wreath (Pinterest is a harsh mistress) but when I saw this beautiful decorated star in The Range, it was so perfect I couldn’t resist. Decorating with a hyperactive kitten in the house isn’t easy. We can’t have an indoor tree this year, or anything that hangs down within reach of little paws, so everything will be on the walls and we’re still trying to figure out where to put our fairy lights so they don’t get pulled down, climbed up or chewed on.

Speaking of the kitten destroying things, this is our pretty Christmas cactus that narrowly escaped being obliterated this morning. We rescued it just in time and it’s now safe on the bathroom windowsill.

I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend and that my fellow Northern Hemisphere dwellers are enjoying a hygge (hygglig/hyggeligt?) beginning to winter ❤

Celebrating a NaNoWriMo 2017 win!

Today’s the day! I validated my NaNoWriMo project and officially won. If you’re not fluent in NaNo, validating is when you paste the full text of your project into NaNo’s  word counting thingy, and winning is when you hit or exceed the target of 50,000 words.

Honestly, it doesn’t feel real yet. I can’t believe I have the first draft of 22 Cards living on my computer (and safely backed up in the cloud). After a month of concept and character development, a month of outlining, and almost three weeks of frantic writing, it is a thing that exists. Phew!

There’s so much work still to be done – a first draft is really only a starting point – but I’m going to set it aside for now and concentrate on publishing Car Thieves, hopefully early next year. But first, I’m going to have a bit of a break.

Living and breathing 22 Cards for the last few months has been a pretty intense experience and my head has been filled with even more violent, dark and murdery stuff than usual. Even the music I’ve been listening to has reflected the mood of the book, with lots of “this is terrible and unhealthy but I’m doing it anyway” vibes going on.

I’m going to take some time to have a creative palate cleanser, indulge in some recreational photography and get back in touch with all the online stuff that’s been on the back burner lately. Right now though, I’m binge-watching Mad Men on Netflix, listening to a lot of Walk Off The Earth, cutting back on my caffeine intake and having a much-needed rest 🙂

Yummy changes at my Patreon

EDIT 7th December 2017: I’m no longer using Patreon. You can read about why in this post.

A few days ago, I posted a public post at my Patreon, explaining some changes to my reward tiers. Since I know I have some new followers here who I didn’t have when I set up my Patreon and talked about it loads, I’m sharing the info here too…

I’m still very much at the beginning of my Patreon journey and therefore a lot of what I do involves experimentation, learning and rethinking approaches. When I first started using Patreon earlier this year, I created a set of reward tiers with different rewards because it was what most other people I saw on Patreon seemed to be doing.


It felt weird and kind of wrong. I don’t use Patreon to create a hierarchy. I use it to create a way for people to contribute financially to my work as a writer and photographer if they want to do that and can afford to. I also use it as a tool to offer some lovely added extras to my most dedicated cheerleaders, and I started feeling like maybe that shouldn’t be down to the difference between $2 a month and $5 a month.


I’ve edited my reward tiers so that all rewards are available at even the lowest tier. This means that for $2 a month, you get…

  • Downloadable full-resolution versions of all the photos I take each month for personal use.
  • Your name (real, alias or screen-name) listed on my website, and in any books and collections I publish (if you’re a Patron at the time of publishing).
  • Monthly Q&A sessions here on Patreon where you can pick my brain and ask me awkward questions.
  • Downloadable epub, mobi and pdf copies of new books at least a week before they’re published anywhere else.

All posts before today will remain visible to only the Patrons at the reward tiers for which they were originally intended. This seems like the most fair thing to do. From now on, all posts will be visible to everyone pledging $2 or more a month (and there might be a few more public ones thrown into the mix as well).

You may notice that character profiles and drafts have been removed from the rewards. I thought long and hard about this and realised that as an independent author who is responsible for all promotion of my work, I was preventing myself from sharing content more widely that has the potential to create and sustain interest in my books. Because of this, I would like to be able to share this content on my own website, social media and/or publicly through Patreon rather than only with a comparatively small amount of people based on an arbitrary pledge amount.

Because some people choose to pledge more than $2 per month (I love you, you absolute wonders), I’ve left the $5 and $10 options in place for those who wish to contribute those amounts, but from now on ALL Patrons get the same rewards, regardless of pledge size.

With this in mind, if you currently pledge $5 or $10 a month and would like to drop this to a lower tier, you are 100% welcome to do that. I completely understand and expect absolutely no justification or explanation. If you want to do it, go for it. It’s all good. I’m grateful for your pledge, no matter what.

Because I still feel like I’m experimenting and learning here, I can’t guarantee that everything will always stay the same, but I can guarantee that I will always be open, honest and transparent with the people who support me as a creator.

Endless thanks for all your support and encouragement so far ❤

NaNoWriMo word count target achieved!

So, this happened. I figured if I managed to hit the 50,000 word target for NaNoWriMo it would be mostly down to caffeine and an obsessive nature. That was entirely correct. Here’s the story of how I hit the target half a month early.

How I got to 50,000 words

Once upon a time, I’d written 28,000 words of a story. It’s no secret that I rarely follow linear narrative structure and tend to switch point of view frequently. It was all going well and I was happy. Then, lying in bed one night, my brain was like, “Hey, this would be way better if all the bits you’d written in third person were written in first person instead.” My brain does shit like that to me all the time.

I did some panic Tweeting, lay awake staring at the ceiling for a while, then managed to get to sleep. The next day, I had two choices. First, the sensible one – change to first person for the rest of the book, then make a firm decision once the draft is finished and make it consistent during editing. Second, the fucking ridiculous one that I obviously went for – redraft a second version of all the third person scenes before continuing, because doing that will make it obvious whether first person or third person feels right.

I redrafted and first person definitely feels right (at the moment), so I now have two versions of the first half of the book (I’m actually not 100% sure that I won’t end up going back to third person later) and then got back to continuing the story. And that’s how 50,000 words happened so unexpectedly early. And coffee. And I’ll sleep when I’m dead.

My new goal for November

I wasn’t taking part in NaNoWriMo just to write 50,000 words in a month. I was, am, doing it to have a complete first draft of 22 Cards by the end of November and that’s definitely still the plan. So my new goal is the finish the first draft, regardless of word count. Not going to lie, I feel a little bit more chilled about the whole thing knowing that I’m not chasing that word count target anymore, but I still have a long way to go and I’m still going.

Things I’ve learned so far

My search history is amazing this month! I’ve learned many new and interesting things over the last couple of weeks, such as how different gun holsters look under different styles of coat, how to break someone’s neck with your bare hands, and that the word garrote originally refers to the stick used to tighten the wire and not the wire itself. Not technically a thing I’ve learned, but my favourite line I’ve written so far is, “The difference between us,” I whispered, “is the sound of screaming doesn’t get me hard.” This has all taken a much darker turn than I expected, and I expected it to be dark.

If you’re currently NaNo-ing, I hope it’s going really well for you, that you’re  still deep in love with your story and that you reach whatever goals you set for yourself in the time you want to reach them