Clementine

Self-portrait, inspired by the lyrics of Clementine by Sarah Jaffe.

We were young
We didn’t care
Is it gone?
It’s gone
It’s floating in the air
I changed my mind
Now I feel indifferent
All that time, wasted
I wish I was a little more delicate

Thicker Than Water, a horror flash fiction collection now on Tablo and Wattpad

Readers, friends and lovely people! If you like your fiction dark and gruesome, I’ve just added a treat for you to Tablo and Wattpad.

Thicker Than Water
A collection of flash fiction on the theme of families and destruction, with the following stories…

Spark
An experience, when destruction brings redemption to what is left of a family.
“It started when I read that 2,450 volts of electricity would be passed through my brother’s body and energy began to mean something different to me.”

The Ninth Step
A prayer, when a life is lost and a family is destroyed.
“Can you explain to her that as soon as I felt the impact, the world broke open and hell closed in around me?”

To Mother’s Farm
A conversation, when destruction is the family business.
“And they might wonder why he’s missing all his teeth. And his tongue. And his fingers. And his left eyeball. And where those electrical burns came from.”

You can read it for free on Tablo and Wattpad. Enjoy!

[Please note this book is a collection of horror stories and contains mentions of violence, gore and death]

Ports and storms

Newhaven harbour in Edinburgh.

I shot this with my phone last night just before a thunderstorm hit. It was one of those “I wish I had my camera with me” moments when something is unexpectedly stunning looking but you’re doing something totally not photography related (going out for dinner, in this case) so aren’t carrying a DSLR.

I’m glad I at least had my phone camera to capture the moment when the weather said “No, fuck your pretty sunset. I’m gonna wreck some shit.”

 

Pride is not just a parade

My one-person stationary Pride parade on my couch

A lot of my friends are celebrating Pride today in Edinburgh at a wonderful parade and a tonne of awesome parties. I’m celebrating Pride today on my couch (and Instagram Stories, see above) because my body is in literally-cannot mode so going-places-and-doing-things is not accessible to me.

To anyone else who would love to be at Pride celebrations but can’t be for whatever reason, you are still valid. To anyone who can’t come out because it would put your safety or your life at risk, you are still valued. To anyone who is questioning and discovering your own identity, you are still accepted. To anyone who feels isolated or distant from your community, you are still loved.

You are already perfect – whoever, whatever and wherever you are. Pride is not just a parade ❤

The Intrepid Explorer

Now that we have a secure garden, Shai the ancient cat (she’s 17!) can be an outdoor kitty for the first time in her life. She isn’t interested in chasing birds but she loves wandering around and exploring the new parts of her little world.

We picked up some pallets earlier in the week so raised flowerbed building is underway. At the moment, there’s a large pile of earth next to the lawn and Shai was very excited to climb around on it.

Seeing her all happy and kittenish again, even at her age, always makes me smile.

I’m on YouTube!

So a few weeks ago, I made a pact with a friend that we’d both have YouTube channels before the end of 2017. Anyone who knows me at all will be fully aware that I am completely terrified of being on video. It freaks me out hardcore. So of course I did it.

Bask in the glory of my nervousness! There will be more videos on the way just as soon as my heart rate goes back to normal and I can cope with talking on camera again. But hey, do something every day that scares you, right?

Floods in the park, Car Thieves and Stone Flowers

We had mega heavy rain here in Edinburgh yesterday. It was awesome, in the truest sense of the word. Today, it was dry and sunny again so I went to the park down the road and a lake had appeared! It was totally amazing looking so I stopped to take a few photos. The entire place wasn’t under water, but part of the road and the playing fields were. It made me smile to see how much the birds were enjoying themselves.

Being outdoors really helps me feel inspired, so it was lovely to do some thinking and planning for Car Thieves, my July Camp NaNoWriMo project. I’m twitching a little bit about it because although I already know some of the characters really well (they appeared in my January flash fiction project) and have a rough idea of the world the book is set in, I don’t actually have a solid story yet.

The story for Stone Flowers Grow in Cold Places appeared pretty much fully formed one day while I was out for a walk, after spending weeks getting to know the characters and their world, so maybe that’s just how it works for me. Even though I can make myself sit down and write even when I’m not really feeling it, I find it hard to force a decent story. Instead of panicking (much) about only having three weeks until Camp NaNo, I’m going to get on with character profiles, location references and world details, and I’m sure the story will happen.

Speaking of Stone Flowers, it’s been proof read and corrected, and has now had its final revision! I still have to make the cover, which I’m really excited about, and then I’ll figure out how to fit the release of the book in with the launch of my Patreon and writing Car Thieves over the next few months. Actually just having a finished manuscript feels absolutely incredible though, especially as it’s the longest single thing I’ve ever written.

I hope you’re all having a great week so far ❤